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Thursday, December 09, 2004 | |
Boxing with Big Billy
"So, how was your year?" Big Billy asks. I'm in his office - on the settee - in the corner, next to the lamp. He moves from his desk to the armchair opposite me. He lights up, raises his right brow and gives me that smile. The smile that says "I have you cornered." This year-end evaluation is going to suck. By default, I hate evaluations because I always come out feeling lousy. Ne'er good enough. Always missing the mark by just that little bit. "Pretty okay," I muster my most chirpy voice and square my chest in preparation for some hard and swift blows. I hope he won't bite off my ear ala Tyson. "No metal, huh?" I felt an invisible punch to my gut. Ooof. I straighten myself and mumble. "It's been tough ... with Heng leaving." "So?" he says and lands a left hook. Blam! I whither. Deep down in me, I know nothing is a good enough excuse for settling for mediocrity. I start fiddling with my pen, while he leafs through my selection of what I thought were my best campaigns for the year. He makes a lot of irritating hmm and hums. "You did do some nice stuff. Some high points here and there. But ...," he pauses for effect, "nothing brilliant." A right hook, a swing to the chin. And I'm down. The whistle blows. The referree counts. Half and hour later, head hung low, I slink back to my cube. Frank Sinatra is singing "Have yourself a merry little Christmas" on my player but I feel like crying. I feel bruised. Everything seems a little grey, muffled, numb - like the split seconds before you black out. Except that I didn't. I just sat down and looked at my monitor that has Jude Law as wallpaper. "Nothing brilliant." Those words cut. Deep. That's when I wonder, yet again, when do you give up on a dream? And Frank continues to sing ... Until then, we'll have to muddle through somehow So have yourself a merry little Christmas now.
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I realised that it is increasingly difficult for you to identify who's who in this blog. So here's a
rundown. Will try to categorise entries to names but that will take some time, cause I still haven't
figured out how to do it. In the agency Big Billy - Boss, my Creative Director Donna - beautiful bimbo Account Executive Heng - the art director I used to work with Hoe, Mr - my favourite client Jenna - the art director I'm working with now Susan - street smart Group Account Director Tina - my Traffic Manager Tomas - fellow copywriter, confidante Beyond the agency June & Mila - my best gal pals Matt - the guy dating me Minnie & Moe - my guppies Trish - the friend who set me up with Matt *all names have been changed. |
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I'll paste work here periodically. But none of them will be real client work - just my own initiates and doodling.
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G-Day Coffee TVC. Scene opens on guy trying to slide down a dry water slide. He gets stuck. He finally manages to squeak all the way down. TVC ends with him savouring a mug of G-Day coffee and the tag "Save water for G-Day coffee". A bit unreal but I love the humour. And the talent, the Each Other actor (I forgot his name), is super. He makes it work. |
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