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Thursday, November 04, 2004 | |
My letter to Fly
Dearest, It's taken me a long time to write this. As you know, I'm no writer. But I will try my best. Nicknames make it is easier to write, don't they? By the way, why Matt? I hope I have proven to you that I'm no EgoManiac. And thanks for the compliments on the pearly whites. (I did read the archives.) Firstly, I apologise for being upset. I have no right to be. This is your blog - your little free speech zone. It is your thoughts, your feelings. I might just take up the suggestion to start my own. Tit for tat. Zig for zag. ;) But what was undeniable was that I was upset. It took me a while to figure why. After all, it did seem trivial and you did write nice stuff about me. Which was why I needed time. So ... why was I upset? Fly, do you know that you are so much more free and open in this blog than you are with me? I feel that I share so little of your thoughts and feelings. Many a times, I've stumped my nose against your 'Keep Out' sign. That hurts. It hurts because I'm like the stupid fool standing outside Alladin's cave who doesn't know the password. And he doesn't even know whether there's one. He has to be content with the few gold nuggets you occasionally drop into his palm, while he watches you shovel by the bucket loads to others. (Not a bad analogy, huh?) We're like the perfect sitcom couple. We exchange insults, we trade jokes, we bop each other's heads. But we skip round the issues. Nothing too heavy, nothing too threatening. We don't want to get too vulnerable, do we? Don't get me wrong, I love your humour. I love hearing you laugh and seeing you curled up, exhausted from a good ab-crunching laugh. But, my dearest, I'm good for tears too. Openness. Vulnerability. If that is not too much to ask. Which makes me wonder - is it me? You don't feel safe? Why can't you be open with me as you obviously are with your "half a million blog readers"? Some times I just don't know. I don't know where I stack. Because I don't know how you feel. You're holding back so much. You've been hurt in the past, I know that. But I am not him. I will not let myself be the one to live out his sentence. You'll probably hate me for writing this. But it is a risk I am willing to take. I'm crossing my fingers and hoping that this make a chink in your armour. But if it doesn't, I guess I will finally know where I stand. At the very least, I would have been honest to myself. Where do you want us to go from here, Fly? It is your call. But I need to know. Love me, Fly. And let me love you. Always, ---- a.k.a Matt | |
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I realised that it is increasingly difficult for you to identify who's who in this blog. So here's a
rundown. Will try to categorise entries to names but that will take some time, cause I still haven't
figured out how to do it. In the agency Big Billy - Boss, my Creative Director Donna - beautiful bimbo Account Executive Heng - the art director I used to work with Hoe, Mr - my favourite client Jenna - the art director I'm working with now Susan - street smart Group Account Director Tina - my Traffic Manager Tomas - fellow copywriter, confidante Beyond the agency June & Mila - my best gal pals Matt - the guy dating me Minnie & Moe - my guppies Trish - the friend who set me up with Matt *all names have been changed. |
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